About two and a half years ago I was involved in a relationship with girl who was also in another relationship. We cheated on our partners with eachother and when it all fell apart it was very painful.

During our summers together I was taken to the highest highs and the lowest lows of the emotional spectrum. Farther then any I have been before feeling stretched thin or full to bursting.

My grandmother would tell me that this is the problem with people getting intimately involved before marriage. I would say it was the cheating that always nagging sense of not being right even if the relationship felt right at the time it gnaws away at you. I broke down and spoke she refused to admit it. 

But know I am having dreams of her. Involving us talking to her mother about cheating. And last night about me helping an older woman up some stairs to have this girl waiting at the top and waving at me as I leave. 

I am very confused about the subject matter of my subconsious and it is making me want to contact her.