Those who know me can attest to the fact that I am as hyper as a rabid ferret — courtesy of five planets in Libra, my totally devoid-of-Earth astrology, or my thyroid, which went nuclear when I was in my forties. This makes meditation difficult, if not almost impossible for me, as I have the Monkey Mind from Hell! Therefore, I am always astonished when I am presented with what I call “downloads” — a split-second dumping of information into my awareness which happens when I least expect it.

Case in point: Several years ago, I attended a weekend class on the Enneagram taught by my shrink, who is a well-known metaphysical teacher in the area. Among the amenities offered were coffee and an array of goodies including chocolate muffins. Now, I didn’t know diddly-squat about the Enneagram at the time — only enough reading about the nine personality types to determine that I was most likely a One (Perfectionist), though I could really relate to Four (Drama Queen).

As I am hypoglycemic, a readily available food source is of paramount interest to me — even if that food source is not a particularly healthy choice. And, as a self-confessed caffeine addict, the presence of a pot of the demon brew loomed large in my peripheral vision. So, just before the afternoon break, we were led in a meditation involving Archangels and all sorts of celestial visualizations. Monkey mind at full throttle, I squirmed in my seat, finding myself only able to visualize the imminent consumption of coffee and chocolate muffins!

As the meditation concluded, ZOT! SHAZAM! — a major download zapped into my caffeine-besotted awareness. It’s difficult to describe how this information is presented… it is as if it’s somehow all coiled up in a spiral which unwinds into a series of images when I observe it. In a second’s time, a number of concepts were emblazoned upon my brain, and I could hardly wait to get home to my computer to render them into something I (and others) could look at. I shared my experience with the class and my teacher, who seemed very intrigued with the information I had received.

Following is what evolved out of that split-second ZOT, and I am still trying to figure it all out several years later. I have asked “Why me?” I think maybe it is because “someone” knows that I can (and will) put it down on paper, and they make allowances for chocoholics with monkey minds and caffeine addictions! (I can just hear “them” now… “Let’s slip this in on her while she’s thinking about chocolate muffins and really blow her mind!” Cosmic laughter and guffawing follows…) So, for whatever it’s worth, here’s what I got that day along with my understanding of it:

The Matter Universe and the Nine Enneagram Personality Types are a Reflection of a Projection of an unseen Spirit Triad, which is a Projection of the Void.  The ALL comes forth from the NOTHING. (Or, as I wryly observed to my teacher, maybe it’s a Cosmic Ice Cream Cone!)

The image was also presented in a slightly different fashion, which showed me that the projection can start at any point.

Since the small circle representing the Void is multidimensional, the first projection can be from any point within/on the circle. Likewise, the projected spirit triangle can form at any point within/on the surface of the larger circle in multiple dimensions simultaneously. Each point is therefore the center of it All.

The next image that came was this one. At the time, I didn’t even know that there were 27 sub-personality types, so this was news to me.

Hey, I just put it down the way they give it to me!

Each aspect of the Spirit Triad (Power, Wisdom, and Love) impacts each of the nine manifest types creating 27 subtypes. In other words, each type has the threefold energies of the Spirit Triad acting upon it to one degree or another.

A “One” personality type, for example, might be a “Power One,” a “Wisdom One,” or a “Love One” depending on which of these energies manifests most strongly in their type. An evolved “One” would be in balance in that they would have manifested those three spiritual energies in perfect harmony within their being. The action of these spiritual energies takes place in multiple dimensions simultaneously. Therefore, the number of possible combinations is infinite.

But, wait, there’s more…

This is apparently a clarification of how the Void and the Spirit Triad are within/behind all matter. Which evolved into this…

Whoa! Are we beginning to see a pattern here? (I am not making light of this…I tend to resort to humor when I begin to get freaked out over some of the stuff I get.)

Another permutation which arose as the spiral uncoiled before me was this…

…and I gasped with the precision and beauty of its unfolding.

Much later, I emailed my images to the Enneagram Institute and Don Riso, who is one of the world’s foremost authorities on the Enneagram, explained how these concepts had come to me, and asked what to make of them. He suggested that I might like to explore the Sufi Enneagram. There was very little available on the internet about it, but it seems that this concept of the Void IS part of those ancient teachings. So, apparently, there is some validity to what I received. If anyone reading this could give me some insights as to what I’m dealing with here, I would be eternally grateful.

When I began to communicate with Astrologer Loni Haas, I told her about my “Venusian” downloads and shared this information with her. After examining my chart, she told me that I was more likely “Uranian” in view of the prominence of Aquarian energies like my ascendant, Vesta, Pallas, and other cosmic bodies that I was unfamiliar with. So, I will have to take her word for it because she is definitely more knowledgeable than I am. (Note: for those who understand this stuff, Loni said I should also mention my prominent and powerful ANGULAR Uranus/Saturn conjunction, with Uranus trine two of my five Libra planets—Venus and its higher octave Neptune, and Saturn [as the ancient co-ruler of Aquarius] trine the other three—Mercury, Mars and the Sun. I have no idea what that means…)

Now I refer to them as my Uranian downloads, and wonder what it all means. If anyone knows, please tell me so that I don’t continue to lie awake at night trying to figure out what I’m supposed to do with it. This is the part that makes me crazy. I get these downloads in great detail, but I don’t get an instruction manual as to how to use them. If someone else DID receive the instruction manual, I’d appreciate it if you’d share it with me!